A little ponder deeper… Day 13,2017


So, this is a bit of a follow up from yesterdays post, and I will try to keep it concise because nobody can be bothered to read my rambles (including me!) , so here goes...   This blog is called "Living my life with Crohns" - but actually, maybe I don't write enough about that.…

Colonoscopy #4 done and dusted


abd at age 22 as well, it isn't fair.  I'm back at work today and so shattered and tired and shaky I could cry. It took all my energy to get me here and I can't cope with actually working and the thought of physically trying to get myself home again makes me feel ill.…

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Ffs. I just have such an over whelming urge to cry- what's wrong with me?! Today I left my boyfriends and went to visit my cousins in London and it was lovely, we had lunch and saw part of the Notting Hill Carnival and then I came home. I'm so tired. I'm so sad. WHAT…

Addicted to blogging? Maybe…


Okay, So I know this is my SECOND blog of the day, and each of these are probably as boring as the last. And the poor fools of you who are following me and getting spammed by these emails are probably hoping against hope that I lose internet connection and am unable to carry on…

The scroll of sadness 


(Not a literal scroll...like a scrolling action...in this case down Instagram!)  Just a quick update of what happens when you search humira , you get reminded that you are not alone and not the only one that finds it hard; but it also makes me a little sad because there are no positive faces; every…

Higher than high and lower than low 


Hi guys, The last like 48 hours have been the perfect example of crohns; I have flown higher than high and felt so happy I was crying with laughter; and so low I question how I am meant to keep doing this, and how this hurts. It also showed me that although a lot of…

I need a whole new cutlery set of spoons..


...in reference to the spoon theory and chronic diseases. Just called in to tell work I won't be in yet again tomorrow and they want a meeting on Monday to discuss my illness. Understandably. But how do I tell them it all? How do I make them understand? Aside from fatigue and some odd cramping…

My head, it hurts.


such bad headaches, such bad exhaustion. I really can't cope. My head is hurting so badly and I think it's a side effect of the humira. I want it to stop. Ouch. So dizzy and in pain and meant to start a new job on Monday. Fuck. 

Crohns is a bitch.


im done with all the nice talks and the motivational posts, they are not okay for today.  Just finished university forever yesterday- happy days! Went out last night and woke up this morning with crohns pains live and kicking ; and for anybody reading who thinks I'm overreacting with a hangover you have quite clearly…