Just keep swimming…


I literally can't even.   I feel so pathethic and crappy and awful and miserable and a million other words and I don't even know why or how to make it better. Strap yourselves in for a long roller coaster of a post folks, I think now I have started its going to be impossible…

So lonely. So sad.


Im so fed up of my life as it is at the moment. I am just so sad all of the time. Everyone is travelling, or working, my boyfriend is off on the trip of a lifetime and I am just sat at home all day everyday doing nothing apart from applying to jobs. I…

Making myself me again…


So as you may know I am currently...well unemployed I guess. I am embarking on the great job hunt post uni, and although I have had a few interviews and a few more coming up there isn't anything I am crazy excited about at the minute- mainly because they aren't working in museums which is…

:'(


got a call from the hospital to say my TB results were inconclusive, most likely 'because of the steroids I'm on' although I haven't been on any for 18 months or so....so they actually have no idea why it didn't work. So. Great.  Back to the hospital on Monday for more blood tests. And in…

Why am I so broken?


Sorry for the spam posting. Just had lunch and within two minutes have quite bad chest pains breathing in and feel over whelmingly nauseous and tired; the kind of sickness feeling that actually hurts. I can't take a deep breath in without pain. I try not to swear in here but what the actual f**k.…