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No title, no words, just a face!  I want to give you guys an update after my relatively dramatic last post- but didn't know what to say, or how to say it. So, Imma bullet point everything going on, rather than trying (and failing) to write a coherent post!  -I'm so freaking tired its unreal.…

Humira’s a b*tch 


I try so hard not to swear, but I literally have 0 other way of describing it.  WHY AM I SO RUBBISH AT IT. Actually, seriously, why?  Still results in a crying mess, shaking and feeling ill. Still can't just "get it over with". Still feel like a stupid baby afterwards.  This post has literally…

What if I am just writing in circles?


What if I run out of things to say? I am worried my thoughts are all the same, mundane worries and fears, stupid self conscious and self deprivating thoughts as well as general despair about my future! Alongside obviously the ridiculous laughing fits, the happy photos, the loving cuddles - but these are things that…

Whale woman reporting for duty 🐳


Literally. I can't even. The tiredness.  I am trying to lose some weight, less snacking, morr healthy food etc. Like three weeks in and nothing, no change. Still the heaviest I have ever been, still waddling around feeling shit about how I look. And that's freaking depressing and annoying! And aside from that I am…

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Ffs. I just have such an over whelming urge to cry- what's wrong with me?! Today I left my boyfriends and went to visit my cousins in London and it was lovely, we had lunch and saw part of the Notting Hill Carnival and then I came home. I'm so tired. I'm so sad. WHAT…

The scroll of sadness 


(Not a literal scroll...like a scrolling action...in this case down Instagram!)  Just a quick update of what happens when you search humira , you get reminded that you are not alone and not the only one that finds it hard; but it also makes me a little sad because there are no positive faces; every…

Soppy sap alert


I write enough negative posts, and am quick to turn to this blog when I am sad or something has gone wrong. But I also have so many happy parts of my life, but I am often too excited to write when they are going on!  Anyway just don't my hunira injection and say here…

First solo injection done…(Y)


so on Sunday was my first time doing my injections without the nurse..scary indeed! My dad got it out of the fridge for me and then he held my hands whilst I actually injected it. I panicked a little  not going to lie - and I'm only 90 certain I held it in for the…