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No title, no words, just a face!  I want to give you guys an update after my relatively dramatic last post- but didn't know what to say, or how to say it. So, Imma bullet point everything going on, rather than trying (and failing) to write a coherent post!  -I'm so freaking tired its unreal.…

Update…


I have literally 0 energy left to think of an even semi imaginative title, sorry.  So went to doctors today because I have the worst sore throat, is really affecting me and now waking me up at night, as is the cough that accompanies it. This is not only wearing me down - alongside the…

A little update from a very tired someone


Ciao amigos,   I went down to Southampton for another check up with my specialist- involved waking up at 6.15, driving for 2 hours and then a 15 minute chat before another repeat; in total I was out the house nearly 5 hours and its completely wiped me out for the rest of the day!…

Humira’s a b*tch 


I try so hard not to swear, but I literally have 0 other way of describing it.  WHY AM I SO RUBBISH AT IT. Actually, seriously, why?  Still results in a crying mess, shaking and feeling ill. Still can't just "get it over with". Still feel like a stupid baby afterwards.  This post has literally…

What if I am just writing in circles?


What if I run out of things to say? I am worried my thoughts are all the same, mundane worries and fears, stupid self conscious and self deprivating thoughts as well as general despair about my future! Alongside obviously the ridiculous laughing fits, the happy photos, the loving cuddles - but these are things that…

Guess who’s back?! 


Sorry for the break since my last post (or maybe you all are welcoming the peace and quiet?!) but I am back and back with a vengeance 😉 I have just been so busy recently and everytime I have thought about posting I chicken out, it's tiring to put yourself out there and open yourself…

Colonoscopy #4 done and dusted


abd at age 22 as well, it isn't fair.  I'm back at work today and so shattered and tired and shaky I could cry. It took all my energy to get me here and I can't cope with actually working and the thought of physically trying to get myself home again makes me feel ill.…

Whale woman reporting for duty ðŸ³


Literally. I can't even. The tiredness.  I am trying to lose some weight, less snacking, morr healthy food etc. Like three weeks in and nothing, no change. Still the heaviest I have ever been, still waddling around feeling shit about how I look. And that's freaking depressing and annoying! And aside from that I am…

Very close to a tantrum


so.  I have to quit my job tomorrow. And I know o show focus on the exciting masters that is in my future. And I know I should focus on all the opportunities . But all I can think about is how am I meant to have that awkward conversation? How am I meant to…

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Ffs. I just have such an over whelming urge to cry- what's wrong with me?! Today I left my boyfriends and went to visit my cousins in London and it was lovely, we had lunch and saw part of the Notting Hill Carnival and then I came home. I'm so tired. I'm so sad. WHAT…