Let’s smash this 👌🏼


okay so sometime you gotta fake it till you make it. I may not be sure of myself and of my future, but If I'm not positive about it, then it definitely won't happen!  I am gonna ACE the last few weeks at my job, making some extra money and helping them out. I may…

Whale woman reporting for duty 🐳


Literally. I can't even. The tiredness.  I am trying to lose some weight, less snacking, morr healthy food etc. Like three weeks in and nothing, no change. Still the heaviest I have ever been, still waddling around feeling shit about how I look. And that's freaking depressing and annoying! And aside from that I am…

Very close to a tantrum


so.  I have to quit my job tomorrow. And I know o show focus on the exciting masters that is in my future. And I know I should focus on all the opportunities . But all I can think about is how am I meant to have that awkward conversation? How am I meant to…

Decisions are my enemy


So I'm starting to settle into work, I could get used to the money and move out and enjoy life as it is  Or I could do my masters and it be a massive risk and be broke and maybe stuck at home but maybe Doug an amazing course and getting me to a dream…

😓


Ffs. I just have such an over whelming urge to cry- what's wrong with me?! Today I left my boyfriends and went to visit my cousins in London and it was lovely, we had lunch and saw part of the Notting Hill Carnival and then I came home. I'm so tired. I'm so sad. WHAT…

Addicted to blogging? Maybe…


Okay, So I know this is my SECOND blog of the day, and each of these are probably as boring as the last. And the poor fools of you who are following me and getting spammed by these emails are probably hoping against hope that I lose internet connection and am unable to carry on…

I need a whole new cutlery set of spoons..


...in reference to the spoon theory and chronic diseases. Just called in to tell work I won't be in yet again tomorrow and they want a meeting on Monday to discuss my illness. Understandably. But how do I tell them it all? How do I make them understand? Aside from fatigue and some odd cramping…

just keep swimming…just keep swimming…


  I highly doubt that it is only me that feels this way, in fact I have heard others express these feelings before - but maybe it does everybody good to know that others get stuck in this rut too? The one where you feel like you FINALLY have got things starting to move forward…