Heartbreak update.


I don't even know where to begin. My heart hurts. my head hurts. My body hurts. Everything hurts. I miss him. So much. I am lying here on a Saturday morning, when nobody else is awake. And knowing I should be at his house. Curled up in his arms. Ready for the rugby today¬†- we…

A little ponder deeper… Day 13,2017


So, this is a bit of a follow up from yesterdays post, and I will try to keep it concise because nobody can be bothered to read my rambles (including me!) , so here goes...   This blog is called "Living my life with Crohns" - but actually, maybe I don't write enough about that.…

Officially got myself a job today…


...at a company I was excited about, with awesome offices and such friendly people...but all I  can do is cry. Over the fact I'm scared, and everything's changing, and that my boyfriend isn't here to be excited for me or to talk to. I'm crying for 100 reasons I don't even know and it's making…

Lifes a bitch.


Ciao amigos. Having a down one today, as the title might suggest! I am just feeling like life is SO unfair, and I needed a moan. Why is it that I cannot sort out my future, my job, my place to live? why is it that this stresses me out so much? Why is it…

Colonoscopy 2 done and dusted. OUCH.


owwwww owwww owww oww ow ow. Seriously. Just to re-iterate. IT HURT THIS TIME. So. I needed this colonoscopy to be done, because its 9 months since my operation and I have been due to have it for the past 3 months, but unfortunately due to personal circumstances, university work and several other reasons I…

Friday the 13th….a really bad day


As if the doctors appointment, blood tests and then the MRI weren't enough...Friday the 13th had to arrive. And I'm not superstitious, but maybe I should be. I had cramps starting about 4pm, and then had to retire to bed about 8pm, just felt so ill! Anyway later in the night I just woke up…