Abcess 1, Me 0


Hey Guys, I know I have been uber rubbish about blogging recently - mainly for the simple reason of lack of time and motivation. I am feeling super crap about myself at the moment, the way I look, my insecurities, my total inability to do something which at all seems productive. BLEUGH.   I had…

Pre-colonoscopy misery


Hi, Me again - once again in a bad mood, feeling down due to tomorrow's ordeal. Have ANOTHER colonoscopy- maybe my 4th or 5th one? I am only 22-  most of my friends don't even know what one is, let alone are a regular at it. And that, is just depressing. Its a glorious day…

Just call me whale woman.


I am so fed up right now. I feel like no job wants me, I have no money to move out, my family is falling apart like theres no tomorrow and to top it off? I FOUND STRETCH MARKS ON MY THIGH. So I am fucking fat too. Great. Sorry for swearing, I try not…

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I am beyond sick of people telling me I am young and can stay up late and how it's uncool of me to be going to bed at 10. I'm sorry do you think I don't know that? Do you think I'm not aware that everyone else my age can handle this better than I…

decisions are not my friend…


Hi again, I know I only posted a pretty miserable post yesterday, and I am sure the last thing you want to hear about is all the same crap again...but here it is. sorry. (promise to try to be a little more upbeat next time!) So a review of my current situation: I am at home,…

Officially Back. Officially Scared. Officially Sad.


Hi all, Got told on Tuesday that my Crohns is almost definitely officially back. The pain, the tiredness, the bathroom trips, the blood results...all adding up to some "not good news" as everyone refers to it. Your bloody right its not good news. I could write an entire essay rambling away about how unfair I…

Why does life hit you all at once?


Maybe I am being dramatic, some people will say I am being an attention seeker, but as of 9am this morning when I found out my exam dates these are some of the things on my to do list, and I am stressing the hell out: -finish coursework -send all coursework recorded delivery to university…

I think its back, and I am scared


I think, I have a gut feeling, that its back. I hope its not, I hope I am wrong, I hope I am being paranoid. All through this process whenever I was given options - for example "we are starting this medicine theres a 70% chance it will work, but if not we can up the dose"…