I don’t have anything particular to say, so I guess this will be a short post! I just wanted to record how the past few days have been…essentially…very hot!
We have been spending a lot of time in the garden, sitting in the sun, working on doing up the garage we have here, planting things in our garden and relaxing! Some days it feels like paradise, a little summer holiday of our own, and other days it feels like an overheated cage – there isn’t much inbetween! I have been spending mornings working on my CV, applying for roles, and frantically looking at other careers to see what I could do to generate some income. I think I may look at being a teachers assistant- could do this part time, gain some experience and the timings would work with it being from September onwards. The whole process is scary, and overwhelming, and I am not really sure which direction to turn! I keep holding out hope for other heritage roles, but honestly, it seems less and less likely.
In terms of health, thankfully everyone is still doing okay. I think my housemate and I may travel home this Saturday to see our families (her school has postponed opening 3 weeks, yippee!) , and I honestly cannot wait. It is the longest I haven’t seen my little siblings since they were born, and I miss them – and my dog! We still can’t go in the houses, share any cutlery/ plates etc, so it will just be a case of taking my own picnic and sitting in the garden, but it will be SO nice to see them. It is weird seeing people (have only seen people once during this whole lockdown aside from virtually) – it is so hard to resist hugging them, touching them, passing things between you. It is obviously vital, but it is so hard.
In terms of the wider world- it seems as though the UK is slowly starting to ease up lockdown (which seems insane to me). Aside from the USA we are still doing one of the worst in the world, and it honestly doesn’t surprise me given how it has been handled. The poor NHS is under so much strain, people are out in their hordes on the beaches and then other people are having to watch their children die alone in hospital because they aren’t allowed to be with them. It is disgusting, and crazy to me. There are rumours we are going to be hit with a second wave, and I don’t see how we won’t be. It breaks my heart to think of the people scared and alone during this time, and the mental impact this is having on every single person who is following the rules.
There are wider societal issues in play at the moment too ,relating to race. The murder of George Floyd happened recently, and America is in uproar over it (rightly so!). There are also protests happening here in London, and it is causing a lot of friction trying to weigh up the need to protest vs the need to keep our vulnerable people safe from the virus. It is often confusing, and there is no clear answer about what is best to do. I am currently spending time compiling reading lists, looking into places to donate, and trying to work out how I can begin to challenge the system in my own life, and what difference I can make. I am at the very start of a long journey, but one that we should all be undertaking.
It is a weird world at the moment. Heavy, scary and angry. But the Earth is also breathing, recovering – water is clearing, ecosystems are recovering and more. I want to go back to normal as much as everyone else, but was the old normal really that great? I will be intrigued to see what changes come from this, and hope that they help us walk towards a better future. These times are rough, despite the happy moments that pepper them (we saw the SpaceX launch live, and then watched the shuttle fly across the stars later that evening…I am spending quality times with my friends…I am reading more…I am reflecting more) but having said this, I look forward to the changes.