2 weeks later


Hi All, ( I love how I still say "all" as if there is an audience...what I actually mean is "hello future self, the only person reading this"!). It has been a few weeks (about 11 days I think) since my last post- woops. Luckily I haven't slipped completely out the habit.  As of now,…

All of a muddle


My brain is all over the place, so here come's a thought dump.... I am grateful to be healthy and safe during these times, and I know so many people are in a worse position, which means that anytime I feel down or stressed it sometimes also makes me feel guilty- people feel worse, so…

Some days are better than others…


Hi, So after yesterdays mega ramble, I just wanted to pop up and try to leave a more thoughtful note to my future-self when I re-read these (hello!). I guess what I have been trying to express is the good and the bad, and the fact that this feels weirdly normal and still alien, and…

Frustration builds, the pot is bubbling over.


I have tried really hard to calmly document my feelings, and the general situation within our society over these past few posts, but today I just need to vent. Back to how this used to be. A stream of consciousness. I want to preface this by saying I KNOW there are bigger things in the…

Feeling hot, hot, hot!


Hello, I don't have anything particular to say, so I guess this will be a short post! I just wanted to record how the past few days have been...essentially...very hot! We have been spending a lot of time in the garden, sitting in the sun, working on doing up the garage we have here, planting…

Easing the lockdown (worryingly!)


Hello! 10 day gap between posts...oops! I mean, compared to the literal months I have gone before that isn't too bad, but I have been really pleased with being able to document this experience recently,  so I hope that isn't a sign of slipping into bad habits! As of Monday (in 3 days time) our…

New beginnings? More like convoluted endings…


Hello! Coming at you from a very sunny day, writing from my kitchen table trying to get some admin work done before I can enjoy the afternoon outside. I say enjoy..I will be sat alone on the floor outside reading a book because we don't have garden furniture, and all my housemates are working...but you…

A voice note to my friend


This blog started with me writing down a text that I sent to my parents, and now I am going to share a voice note I just sent to my friends. Today, is a hard day.   Hey, I am having a bit of...a low day today. I had a good morning, I worked on…

The good, the bad, and the reality


Sorry for the break in posts these last few days...there has been a lot for me to get my head around, and try to come to terms with! I spent a lot of last week in a flurry of tears and stressful moments, trying to understand the redundancy process, my rights (of which there are…

I got made redundant.


I am not even really sure where to begin with this post, or how I want to process everything that is in my head right now. I guess, start with the good things, which are that I am safe and healthy, and so are my family and friends. I have very sadly been made redundant…